sweet seventeen . sweet day . :D :D

29 . o3 . 09 - that was a coolest day in my life . :D

yeah, i'm seventeen now, i have a small friendship but i love them so damn much.

and i really really adore them, my family too . :)

i started to share, on 28 . o3 . o9, ( jona's bday ), i went to moniq's home to meet [ TRI . GO ] before my party. because one of us will get a long exam until june, so we taught that we must together and shared what we wanted to share . i didn't guess anything about this day and about what they wanted to do to me . and hell yeah . they did a crime to me . they lied to me . and you what they have lied ? they said that moniq's brother has bought a cute mini pom ( it's dog ), so she asked me and novi to see it . so, we out from moniq's room and walked to right side of her home . when i looked to road beside home, but they threw me a basket of water [!] . i shocked and i turned back my body to see them, but you know ? they threw me again with 3 bottles of PEPSI BLUE, and also 3 pockets of liquid milk . but that wasn't enough . 1 pocket of powder again. it made my body so eiuhhh if you smelt it . >< . i cleaned  my body with a lot of patient, it was so hard to make the smell decrease .

on 29 . o3 . o9 [!], that's my special day . :) . in the morning, i woke up on 8 p.m. , i wanted to prepare about the special day, so i took a bath early, washed my hair and made up . ah, that was an activity that i never wanted to do it if didn't necessary . after i made up, i blew my hair with mom's hair dryer . honestly, i'm lazy to do that . when time was on 9.3o a.m. , i prayed with my family to thank GOD about His blessed to me, and i leaved my home to go to take my cake in chocolate kitchen .

i arrived at Acacia Hotel on 11 a.m. , but no one has arrived . one of my friends told me that she wouldn't come because of a stomachache disaster . hh~ . so i just waited for another friends . i sent one of [ TRI . GO ] members a message to ask where they are, but she told me that she has just woke up and wanted to take a bath, on 11 a.m. ? OH GOD ! one of another was the same, they told me that they would be late .

on 11. 20 a.m. one by one of my friends came, and [ TRI . GO ] made a crime again [!] .

we started to eat, dim sum and it was so yummy . :)

i waited until jona and jesica arrived and could be together for that special event .

when they arrived, i brought out my cake and started to sing " happy bday " with all of my guest . my IPTO's guests forced me to give my first cake to a guy who came . and i gave it to Abun, because he was a kind person and sometimes i could shared with him . :)

my party ended on 3 p.m. with a big smile and full of happiness . all of my guests took many photo with some style that could call it CRAZY . ^^

it was so fun to spend my day with them .

and i would tell you about my presents from them.

1. STONE ! - given by : the " ISENG " team, i didn't guess anything about this !
2. Shocking pink bangles and necklace, cow t-shirt ( with words : TRUST ME, i'm the most stupid cow ), a bandana with a small lace ! - given by : [ TRI . GO ] & charles . you know ? it needed a patient to open that present because they warped it with 2 boxes of shoes, 34 pages of newspaper and 29 notes to set.
3. TWILIGHT SAGA series ! - given by : stephanie, krisyani, keshia, patricia, clyde . i'm so happy to have it ! ^^
4. a book and a note - given by : jessica
5. a wallet ( LV black blended with red ) - given by : helen, cylla, abun, angel . amazing wallet that i ever had . :P
6. a LOVE LAMP - given by : [ VELUSTY ] . cute lamp, and i love it so damn much !
7. a WHITE small bag - given by : angela evita .
8. a stationery case - given by : jona . so cute ! :)
9. pink pajamas - given by : POPS . i never guess that he gave me that . ^^

IRRATIONAL PERSON

kehidupan gue smakin menggila belakangan ini, ntah kenapa gue ngrasain sesuatu yang bener - bener buat gue gak abies pikir sama apa yang slama ini orang pikirin tentang gue, sifat gue, sensitifitas gue, dan loyalty gue.

yeah, ada 1 hal yang sampe saat ini gak bisa gue mengerti karena ini IRRATIONAL ! aneh aja gitu, orang yang paling bego skalipun juga gak bakal buat kayak gini. sebego - begonya mereka, mereka masih punya otak untuk mikir, tapi ini ? what the hell.

ada beberapa alasan yang membuat gue berbuat sepertinya layaknya cewek dengan kata - kata kasar yang keluar dari mulut gue sendiri, dan bagi orang yang tau sama gue, ya itu lah gue, sifat gue, dan perlakuan gue terhadap orang yang jelas - jelas uda berbuat keterlaluan, :

1. dy NGETES seorang sahabat gue yang dulunya sempet brantem sama gue, tapi sekarang uda fine.

what the hell ? NGETES sohib gue dengan pertanyaan super bodoh yang pernah gue temuin di seluruh dunia ini. buad apa sih ? penting ? ada guna ? mau cuma becanda ato apapun, jelas banged itu uda gak etis, minus in attitude, minus in manner. so ? ngapain sih kalo maksud cuam becanda pake tes segala. super gag pnting dan bodoh kalo di liat dari kacanata orang yang uda tau apa yang harus dy perbuat a.k.a DEWASA (= MATURE)

2. dy nge-add orang yang wall-an sama gue dengan alasan ASAL NGE-ADD.

aduhh, penting gak sihhhhh ??? setololnya orang juga, kalo mereka tau yang di lakuin jenis - jenis kayak gini mah, jelas mereka bilang, NO NEED ! kalo alsean cuma kayak gitu mah, semua juga bisa lah. tapi masalahnya, yang di add itu syapa dulu ? dan efek apa yang di timbulin pas ngelakuin hal itu? mikir gak sih. boleh sih egois, tapi tau tempat lah. gara - gara hal ini, ada beberapa orang yang jadinya malah nanya cowok gue marah apa gak. what the f*ck ??!!

3. dy berbicara dengan entengnya kepada sohib gue seakan - akan gue itu cewek gampangan yang tinggal di kejer lagi ktika gue lagi single a.k.a KOSONG.

jujur yah, gue paling benci sama hal satu ini. gak pnting lah mau di taro di nomor satu ato gak, yang pasti, ini ngebuktiin, klo ternyata dy bener - bener gak bisa di baein. coba deh sekarang EMPATI. kalo lo yang ada di posisi gue, trus lo di gituin, rasanya kayak apa ? apalagi yang ngomong itu dulunya sempet deket banget sama lo. dan dy dengan entengnya ngomong kayak gitu ke sohib lo yang dulunya emang suka sama lo. reaksi lo apa? gue balikin deh coba keadaannya. mau gak di gituin? kalo gak mau, jangan gituin orang. itu sama aja, lo gak lebih dari seorang yang EGOIS.

see? MAKSUDNYA APA? mau bales dendem gitu? ok lah, gue trima, gue ada salah. karena gue uda buat dy berharap sama gue tapi pas knyataannya malah gue jatohin dy a.k.a ninggalin dy. tapi gue gag sepenuhnya kok ninggalin dy, gue masih jadi temen. tapi BUKAN TEMEN YANG JENIS KAYAK GINI. ini mah bukan temen namanya. CARI MUSUH.

sekarang kalo orang bilang, masalah ini di gede - gedein, syapa yang mulay ? gue? gue tipe orang yang gak bakal mulay masalah klo gak ada yang nyulut api di muka gue. gue bukan tipe orang yang suka perpanjang masalah apalagi cari ribut. dan gue bukan tipe orang pendendam. buat gue, itu apaan sih? gak penting.

gue MUAK sama hal ginian. pas dy bilang muak juga, gue apa namanya? MUAK SAMPE MAU MAMPUS gitu? jangan pernah ngaku deket sama gue, knal sama gue klo blom tau gimana sifat asli gue, cara gue selesein masalah sama orang yang gag bisa di ajak kompromi, dan gimana muaknya gue dengan perlakuan yang di luar bates kewajaran manusia normal.

klo sampe hubungan sohib gue brantakan gara - gara dy, dy adalah orang pertama yang bakal gue minta pertanggung jawabannya dan ber-terimakasih atas apa yang uda dy lakuin.

friendship. :)

what the meaning of friendship for you? just a game? just for fun? or just a part of your life that only beside you when you're happy ?

for me .

F - R - I - E - N - D - S - H - I - P is not just a game, not just for fun, and not just a part of my life that only beside me when i'm happy . but, there's a relation between me and my close friend that bring a new experience to be better each other.

it's not just taking, it's also giving. because in every relation always has a give and take, so it can be balance.

perhaps, there's only a little person that can give more values for their friendship. honestly, i think if i never have a friendship, i can be a crazy girl. you know why? not all of your story, you can share with your family. believe it or not. :)

it also makes your spirit raise, because of their support and unconditionally love for you. even they're not always with you, to accompany you in every event, but they're always in your heart that still have a time for you whenever you need them.

sometimes, they can't understand me, but i know, they want the best for my life. even their ways can't be said wrong for me.

i believe that GOD has chosen my close friends to be a best part of my life. and i have reiceved it with my honest heart.

i'm not a perfect friend that always make a happiness in my close friends' life, but i just can give my best for this friendship until i have to leave this earth forever.

and finally, i gave got a beautiful, wonderful, and the greatest friendship.

especially for : [ TRI . GO ], VELUSTY, and few of my school friends .

disappointed.

i'mdisappointedwithsomeonewholookssoperfecttomeforallofmylife.

but you know? i tried to be better but when i'm out of control, " it " looks like a person who hates me a lot. maybe like a murder.

no one know about this fact. i don't want to tell anybody that " it " has hurt myself. but i just want to share and make my sadness become decrease. if someone thinks that i want to anybody know about this, they do a BIG WRONG in their life.

because a lot of people around me always looks from negative side, not from positive side. and i have seen it + felt it . it's so uncomfortable.

i don't know too why " it " can do it to me. i never think " it " can be push me and has a unheavyhand for touch my cheek rapidly. it makes marks from my face and my heart. i will never forget about this until i must die.

i'm not a resentful person who will reply " it " as " it " do it to me. but i just can't make this relationship back like usual. because of my heart already hurt so deep and maybe permanently.

for a while, i thank GOD, i have " it " in my life. " it " always meaningful to me. but now? i don't think like that again. even though " it " will be back like before we fight.

what must i do now? i'm not hate " it ". i swear with it. i just want to show " it " that my voice and my mind still true.

sometimes i can be like an impolite girl. i know it. and i have a sense of egoism not too much. but why " it " always sensitive with this? why " it " never understand me if i have this? and why " it" can't check " it "self?

there's so many question *why*, but i know, it never answer. because i already hopeless with this. nothing to do. i have surrendered at all. :(

17 words .

17 words from one person . 17 words which gave me stronger . 17 words for my life .

17 words was made by love . 17 words leave a nice memory .

17 words about the truth of life and raise spirit .

1st

" there's no care for people who made you down and who just bring a sadness and sorrow for your life . so . just care for people that you believe and know about you . "

2nd

" in this life . there's a bad or good side . but don't look everyone on their bad side . coz everything that we've done always have a strong reason which can help us to do something for sure . "

3rd

" process from GOD it's hurt when you get it . but you can know how much GOD love you to make you more mature, more patient . and it can't be replace by anything in this world . you will be a better person for GOD, for your family, your besties  and for yourself .

4th

" when you got a big problem and you couldn't solve it . just remember that GOD always beside you and will always wait you for a regret . GOD never leave you alone . "

5th

" always thank GOD for everything that you have got . GOD always have a wonderful plan that we can't know but we just believe that GOD's plan will be great for you and your life . "

6th

" there was may problem in your life . we couldn't know when they came, we couldn't guess how difficult it was, how long it was, how strong we could survived, and how believe you in GOD . but u just need to patient and wait for a while when GOD will change it become a best part for your life . "

7th

" don't waste your tears for people who act you impolitely . coz your tears is so expensive to out because of them . but you just need to give them a sweetest smile to show that you are not weak . "

8th

" learn from your past experience . it will make you better and not fall in the same mistakes again . because human always did their same mistakes for twice or maybe more but they didn't conscious what they have done . "

9th

" your life ? just do what you have sure . even if it bad or good . but you will do it with your heart not with your egoism and unconditionally . "

10th

" consider for everything you wanna do . because time can't go back for twice . and give your best for everything you do . it works so good when you do it with your heart . "

11th

" never say : i can't do it . because when you say it . your mind and your brain process it . so always never do it in your life . just say : i can do anything with GOD . and you can do perfectly . "

12th

" sometimes we need a time for while to become lonely . and when you at that time . you have to meditate about your life . become silent and see what you have done in your life . it can makes you more fresh to face your problem . "

13th

" you will never guess what will happen in your life . but you can guess about your power to solve the problem . "

14th

" just a simple word to say for all people around you . it called LOVE . LOVE taught you how to care and understand with an honest heart . "

15th

" take it easy for all of things that happened in you life . your life only once . enjoy it happily . and remember that your life is in your hand not your besties, your family . GOD ? just gives your final result . "

16th

" never do what you don't want anyone do for you . never be a hypocrite person . just show what you feel and what you want to do to make it better . because when you do like that, people see you as you do . "

17th

" it's hurt when your beloved person leave you forever . you will cry all the time without think that all people around you that still live with you is sad to look you . but you must know even though your beloved person never come back, they always live in your heart . "

this post especially for a person who always raise my spirit,

with all he has done in his life .

loveyou . :)

sos 2's art perform . :D :D

yeahhh . KELAS KONTROVERSIAL dan 

SUPER DAHSYAT buad gebrakan baru [!]

dikarenakan ada tugas ujian blok 1 seni yang mengharuskan membuat satu lagu dengan full aransemen ( intro - lagu pokok - interlude - coda - tranposisi - ending )

tampil tanggal 6 Februari 2oo9 . di hari jumat .

XI SOS 2 selalu punya sesuatu yang baru untuk di tampilkan dan dengan usaha ++ hasil yang sangat memuaskan dan outstanding pula . :D

here we go .

ini 4 kelompok seni dengan karya - karya terbaik serta penampilan memukau . persembahan untuk SOS 2 sendiri dan untuk nilai . ^^

1st group [!]

. AGUNG . DANIEL . KEVIN . JESSICA . KRISYANI . EVADNE . GILANG .

judul lagu : i love you

gilang : piano . evadne : seruling . krisyani : ritmis .

yang laen ? nyanyi .

ini lagu punya DANIEL . yang sebenernya pas pertama kali di bawain waktu ambil nilai yang maen pianonya clyde . :)

not bad kok . persiapannya harus lebih banyak lagi . pasti lebih keren . [!]

2nd group [!]

. ANDREW . MARCELLA . MUTIARA . MELISSA . EDWARD . PATTY . VENE .

judul lagu : hanya dirimu

vene : gitar . patty : pianika + seruling 2 . melissa : seruling 1 . mutiara : harmonika . edward : perkusi . marcella : kecrekan + suara 2 . andrew : backing vocal .

ini lagu lama yang baru pertama kali di tampilin lagi . punya VENE 

(maaf agak narsis ! :p ) .

aslinya sih lagunya slow . tapi di buat jadi slow - pop - semi jazz .

latiannya cukup memakan waktu lama . soalnya pake musiknya lumayan banyak .

and good job buad MUTIARA yang uda maen harmonika . :)

banyak yang bilang lagunya enak . dan salah satu anak kelompok laen sampe sdkit banyak hafal lagu ini .

terima kasih untuk dukungannya dan pujian dari para teman . ^^

3rd group [!]

. CAROLIN . RENALDI . HIZKIA . QIGEN . SAMANTHA . SILVIA . VALERINE . FELIX .

judul lagu : bintang

naldi : gitar . hizkia : perkusi . felix : maracas + tamborin . valerine : pianika .

kata naldi sih . refrain lagunya di buat sama felix .

overall . KEREN dan MANTABS . musiknya enak . easy listening .

ada jazz - dangdutnya juga . kata - katanya juga simple . dan yang pasti . aransemennya dahsyat .

jadi keulang - ulang terus ini lagu di otak .

good job for RENALDI + VALERINE . komposisi musiknya yang buat tambah enak yah di gitar naldi yang uda dewa dan sie bebek yang maen pianika + suara 3 ato suara berapa lah itu . :p

4th group [ !! ]

. CLYDE . KESHIA . STEPHANIE . JONATHA . WEROS . ADRIAN . EDMOND . EDBERT .

judul lagu : winter melodies

clyde : flute + piano + symbal . keshia : piano + symbal . stephanie : flute . edbert : drum . edmond + adrian : ritmis - kecrekan .

KELOMPOK PALING GILA [ ! ]

bayangin aja . pake 3 keyboard + 2 flute + ritmis + kecrekan + drum + symbal . ada dramanya pulaa~ . gilaaa .

perfect lah . apalagi ada clyde sie dewa aransemen musik . :p

musiknya aluss gitu . dengernya enak kalo lagi sepi - sepi gitu . ditambah suara flute yang mantab . cuma sayangnya .

uhm . suara yang nyanyi di sni kurang mendukungg . sayang banged padahal . uda bagus . :D

good job for CLYDE . KESHIA . STEPHANIE .

dan buat edmond . yang lucu banged pas drama . :)

itu uda semua kelompok di jabarin . kita sih ada rekamannya . pake hp kutil waktu itu .

tapi sayangnya gag gitu bagus hasilnya . buad suara sih okay kok . cuma kadang - kadang ada celetukan sama berisik gitu .

KANGEN MASA - MASA INI . :D

last performance guys . and it ended so nice ! good job for all .

and sos 2 ? slalu punya gebrakan .

even kita brisik dan susa di atur tapi kita bisa menghasilkan karya - karya yang patut di acungi jempol .

so pastinyaaa~ . GAK ADA YANG REMED . begitu sih kata bu dian . :p

best regards,

-ven

XI SOS 2

. 3o .

sulit untuk jadi orang yang egois .

MAUngelakuinhalyangdianggapbaikuntukdirisendiri . ahahahahaha . :D

belakangan ini rada sulit yah nglakuin hal yang bisa bahagiain diri gue . kbanyakan yang gue lakuin sepertinya membuat orang lain puas dan gue sndiri tidak . gue sih emang tipe orang yang mau bantu kalo orang butuh bantuan dan so far gue fine nglakuin itu . tapi styap gue mlakukan itu malahan hati gue mrasa gag puas .

bukan masalah love life . bukan juga masalah friendship . dan juga bukan masalah family .

tapi masalah antara hubungan satu orang dengan orang lain yang bisa di bilang sulit unutk di anggap teman .

mungkin kadang2 gue yang salah dengan selalu mau memberikan yang terbaik tanpa minta balesan . tapi gue jadi keinget deh ma kata - kata salah satu anggota TRI . GO kemaren kamis :

" kalo lo gak sayang sama badan lo sndiri . gimana orang mau sayang sama lo ? "

bisa di bilang gue rada cuek ma badan gue sndiri . buktinya ? gue skarang kna sakit maag yang parah dan sangat sensi ktika gue mulai brantakan lagi jam makannya . padahal selagi gue ngrasain sakit . gue bisa aja pduli sama orang laen yang sebenernya gag jauh lebih parah sakitnya daripada gue .

sekarang yang jadi masalah . kemaren - kemaren ini gue semped hubungan lagi sama mantan gue . sbut lah namanya B . dy minta sesuatu ke gue yang seharusnya sulit untuk gue lakukan tapi gue pikir apa yang gue lakuin mungkin akan membuat dy lebih baik : jadi sahabat yang selalu ada buat dy .

ok fine . jujurnya sih gue rada gag rela dengan kata - kata di atas . dan gue gag mendapat kesenangan ataupun kepuasan apapun ketika dan setelah mengucapkan kata - kata itu . tapi nglyad dy hepi . gue jadi gag tega untuk bilang gag .

so ? salah apa kalo gue bilang gag sama sesuatu hal yang gue pikir itu baik untuk diri gue sendiri ?

egois juga kan namanya ? gue sih gag mau jadi orang yang egois . tapi gue juga sndiri bngung gimana cara memuaskan hati gue dengan styap kata yang gue ucapkan .

gue inget satu quote dari orang yang paling berarti dalam hidup gue :

" idup lo harus lo jalanin dengan apa yang lo yakinin . jangan pduliin itu baik buad lo ato gag . yang pnting lo enjoy ktika lo lakuin itu dan lo lakuin itu dengan sepenuh hati lo . "

meaning ??

sepertinya itu tidak berjalan dengan baik dalam idup gue . dan udah lelah untuk mencoba . : )