"just fine"

am just not a good liar anymore. at least, in front of you.
should I hold this tears longer? the condition does not support me at all. to tell you everything I really want to.
and now, let me try to hold.
until it has to be explode or gonna be an explosion. bigger than I think about.
I know the risk, I'll take it. good or bad.
keeping it in my mind, only me and God know.
somehow, I should be stronger. but this problem drowns me into the lowest level of my life.

I am "just fine"
:)

(not) only about you.

people hate critics. I'm quite fine for it, at least now. by time I realize, something what makes me sick is looking people who think they are the perfect one or the best one to do that. everyone has their own problem, what do make you like the right one? I try to understand your problem inside, after tons of efforts you do. at the end, you should know that what you have just did is a part of licking your own saliva as you ever told me so.

"above the sky, there is still the sky"
you can be proud of your team. but you can never be proud of others. never ever. because your point is only for the better condition inside your team. you think you do not need the others who always support you. hey, you're not the expert one! is there a big difference between your team and the other team? you always say that we are ONE family, but where is it? where should I look for that words?
I blame it on myself for this, for times I can not count for if I have this thought over and over again. maybe, this is my problem who can not accept your team. so, in the end, my voice should not be heard to everyone for anything goods. because you always tackle everything with any reasons that make people accept this. you told me to grow up, and when I move growing, I realize that I should not put any respects to you.
it is (not) only about you. thinking about others is good, if you can see from another side you never see.