big things.

yesterday, i talked with my friend. yeah, she is a girl same like me. just called her S (nom de plume). i just knew her lately because of a meeting between our friends. we're getting closer then
anyway about what i have talked, she told about big things that i never realize. maybe i ever realize yet but i ignore.some talks offend about what i have got from God, it meant talents; and some offend about guys' action to me. nice chat!
she told me with too long words:

you're a great packaging that is made by God. you have lots talents to be improved. you could play guitar well until one of your friends told you were a really band member and you sang well too with your voice. your interest in photography brought you to a new point plus though you were not a designer or photographer student. for new people, you looked so warm with them; you never make any differences. then your ignorant attitude, sometimes it works to show that you're not a cheap girl or a girl easily to fall in one guy; you impressed guys that you need their fighting to get you. from you words or even just looked you talking, people could know that you're a smart girl and well-informed. by the way, you always know what next words wanted to tell if you were in a conversation with people and quick to connect when people talked about something. hey, you should be thankful for what you have got from God. every girl wants some talents of you and you should not have a jealous feeling with others! you're special, so do am i, and so do are others.

but you know? she made me thought about something i never think before. about guys that maybe give some signal and wait for my response. i thought her words have a point of righteousness.

she told me with some consideration from her friend and her brother:

hey, you have lots talents and point plus but did you ever think that guys who wants to approach you consider to your point plus and talents? some guys maybe feel inferior after saw your packaging as a girl. remember it, guys search for girls who have a lower scale of him in every part; just to show girls that they're guys who can protect you or can be proud to you family - friends. if your packaging was so complete, then what should they do? there will be you looked shiner than him and it's a mess! my friend and my brother ever said about this yet. they're guys and have an opinion about girls who can do everything by herself like you. they will fell useless as a guy and nothing can be proud of himself.

so? maybe you should find out a guy who has more skill or maybe something you can't do. it will make your life more complete. your soulmate is determined by God. if you can be a good girl in your family then you will get a great soulmate for your whole life. but never stop improving what you have got!

after heard that, i thought it twice because i felt about it lately. for some guys that maybe have a willing to approach me. my ignorant attitude brings me into a situation i never expect

last words from her which always i remembered:

and you know what? with your activities, talents, and point plus - you could be the best girl. but you should take a not about this in your head! all you had could be a knife with two eyes. you can beat the best of everything or destroy it as soon as possible if you couldn't control it. especially for your love life: it could be reasons why guys adore you but it also could be reasons just to look you from far - once again, an inferior feeling.

no offense to be arrogant :)

thanks S you have opened my lil' eyes about people feeling and your opinions about me. i promise i will consider about our talks.

cheers ♥

badly missing!

i miss you all so badly!

miss every times we had together completely as superb best friends

next year suppose to be a great year when i can hang out with you all again

i'm waiting :D

transformation.

maybe my negative thought trapped me into a bad mindset about my 'home'
but at the first day i stayed, i have a super new friendship!
with a lot of people involve in one circle of friendship from some regions and countries
i have friends from Qatar and Suriname
it's amazing anyway, isn't it?
we can't find friends from that rare country if you didn't have connection with them

my orientation has passed, a whole week full of tiredness
i made a lots friends too in my class, CBN 03 :D
that class can be said so awesome, 3 majors of literature and culture be united in one class
english - china - japanese literature, 74 students with an unbalance comparison of male and female, too much females in this crazy class :p
but there was a problem between one person and i, i try to be neutral
love our motto: prikitiew, which is popularized by sule (one of comedian at Indonesia)
we went to Dufan last week and did lots fun

i'm getting closer with some friends at Binus Square and now i'm starting to miss them
this Friday i will stay at there again, gonna attend a camp briefing from my student association
can't wait until Friday! :)

from new 'home' became my second home!

new 'home'

finally the day has come, i'm inside the meeting room of my 'home'
still alone anyway, i only have one friend in here, my junior high school friend
a girl, she takes IT for her major college, live at tower C room 0524
first impression when i came this place yesterday: it's gonna be a great moment live in here
i skipped the briefing session, now i have to wait for another event at 5 p.m.
hope it will be a good event for all boarders here
maybe i can make some friends
by the way, today i have moved some goods for living here
dictionaries, holy bible, rosary, some things which is gave by my friends and meant a lot for me
the orientation will start next week, and in the whole week i will stay at here, alone
my room was not too bad. a small bed, a cupboard, a chair, a table, a big mirror, an air conditioner
this sunday i will move everything, my room looked empty enough now :(

friendSHIT :)

in the end of June, i have decided to end everything that had connections with you
i thought i should stop writing about anything i want to write
because you will stalk my blog
then, it happened! so what should i do to you?
blog maybe a very super duper social network that people can read everytime anytime anywhere
i can't stop writing, just that
i don't care if you want stalk my blog, it's ok
it means you still care about me though it more impressed like wanna-know-too-much (read: kepo)
about my twitter, should i shut up about this?
if you read this and you got angry, it's your fault anyway
i just write what i feel and you read that, so? you deserve to angry and mumbled?
you don't deserve for it, you choose your action to open my blog
when you see this post, it means you can responsible the risk of your action

i don't wanna make a fight with you
at least, you used to be one of my bestfriends
that's your choice to hoist war flag, i will not pay attention for it
i feel i don't have a serious problem with you, that's you feel about it
i think i don't have to reply anything to you, it will not give me any profit
so walk on your bad thought about me
i don't care about you again
i can write or post updates whatever i want to, you feel that's you? your business
just waste my time if i have to reply and pretend to be kind with you
what we have passed was enough for me


#quoteforyou:
revenge doesn't finish problem but if you wanna avenge me, i will not see you as a human
cheers ♥

hell-o AUGUST!

second day of august already. time flies so fast.
my first post in this month anyway :D
next week gonna be my hell week ever, i must leave my home
for a week maybe? college orientation is waiting for me
two days ahead i will attend to my 'home' to take my own key
then have to attend with my parent, come to parent gathering
eighth august will be my first time sleep over my 'home'


#augustwish:
get a good room, make friends at my 'home', good orientation, can adapt in my new environment
enjoying my college life, be better :D