"just fine"

am just not a good liar anymore. at least, in front of you.
should I hold this tears longer? the condition does not support me at all. to tell you everything I really want to.
and now, let me try to hold.
until it has to be explode or gonna be an explosion. bigger than I think about.
I know the risk, I'll take it. good or bad.
keeping it in my mind, only me and God know.
somehow, I should be stronger. but this problem drowns me into the lowest level of my life.

I am "just fine"
:)