it's final.

when my mom asked me: what's going on between you and him?
one statement i could say: i don't know, mom. everything gonna be worst.


when my brother asked me: have you tried to finish everything as well as both of you could do?
one action i could show: shake my head left to right - right to left.


when my dad asked me: could you get him off from your life?
no statement, no action. i'm speechless.


when my best friend asked me: why did you still thinking of him? he always hurt you.
i'm not speechless. i left her. i didn't want to hear it again.


but,
when he asked me: would you be mine again? please.
i'm sure that my answer never made me regret: NO!
i knew everyhting's changing fast. also you, me, and us.
and it will never back as you wish.

you couldn't be said by words. more than beautiful words.
you're not my everything. for now and ever.
even i realized my heart still yours and my love is had by you,
but i decided to close my heart for you. to take my love from you.
hurt, love, care - it just deathly feelings that i ever can feel again.