close friends, [ TRI . GO ]

i missed my close friends. maybe for a few day, maybe a few week. dunno why, but i felt that i lost them. even we have just met two weeks ago.

uhm, i taught, it was my birthday when we met last. and on these day, we didn't talk too much, maybe because of i invited my school's friends, so we couldn't together and had fun with my another friends. i guessed.

in whole life, suddenly i felt like, yeah, as i told before, lost my close friends.

i'm conscious that our habits have been changing.

in the past, we seldom met. sometimes, we couldn't meet for 2 months, maybe more. when we met, we just did a fun activity, like : watched movie, ate without share or anything else. uhm, little share about our school activities and our problem, but didn't tell a full story.

and now. yeah, we always have a time to meet, even just a while. we met to share, not for having fun. in 2 weeks, we could meet again. it made our friendship so close. and felt that we had a precious friendship that never change. but, when we busy with our activities, with school, i taught we liked yeah, have a distance.

yesterday, one of them chatted with me, and she shared about her fear. she afraid [ TRI . GO ] would be broken. and she had stress about it, also sad. uhm. it was impossible. i guess. i hope so. and i'll try to not make it possible.

one thing, she made me conscious about the condition. i always think that we just busy with our activity, so we'll meet after our activities have done. and it's like our habit to meet seldom.

but, she told me, our habit has changed. yeah, i recognized it. --'

for some opportunity, i couldn't say yes when they asked to meet. because of my activities and anything else. and then, i felt guilty.

i told her, not only for her, but for us, that ..

i'll never leave you, if you want to share or anything else,

call me or message me. i'll always have a time to hear you and share with you.

and, it's so hard to find close friends like you all.

hold my words gurls, i said it with all of my heart and i couldn't imagine my life without my best close friends like you. i adored you, i love you, and i'll always care about you. whenever, whatever, however.