my cheeks is always wet by my own tears for some reasons. the special reason is when i reminded of you. there was a problem between me, you, and my dad complicatedly. i don't know how to solve it, i don't know how to make my dad can accept you as you are. so when i got a dispute, i just could cry every night.
it's our fault as you said to me. maybe. but not at all. i can't overwhelm all causes to dad or us. it's too hard to understand rationally. we just could be patient and silent, wait until everything gonna be alright.
i realized lately that i have buried this problem to the deepest of my heart. i ignored everything about this problem that can hurt our heart or i ran from the truth that i must face this problem alone. but while this problem appeared, i'm panic and it brings to my serious insomnia. i realized it just now when my classmates and i also my class guardian made a praise and worship time at my class. i cried well as my complaint about the national exams and for my buried problem.
oh hell yeah, i got my serious insomnia for one week lately. tomorrow i'll face some mid term test, continued by school final exams then prepare for the national exams. 28 days more from now! :(
God, please give me more strength and power to face this exams. and bless me for my steps i'll take. then my concentration to prepare and study the exams. i'll try my best for You, dad, mom, bro, and also him.
i love them a lot, i know You know it God (:
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