psychotic?

it's been 5 years (maybe), you did those unlogic action
what do you want? what do you need? a confession? an attention?
is there insufficient help from others? is there any shortage?
you realized what you have done, you knew what was going on your environment. but could you please behave?
where's your brain? where's your consciousness? where's your heart?
you have giving pains for people around you especially for people inside your home. have you satisfied?
everyone gives what you wants, afraid if you lose your control and start to mess up again. do you never conscious with all things you do?
the very important thing is you have ruined my beloved people! you such a mess maker for me, for my family! if you did it once twice or maybe thrice, i still can forgive you. but 5 years is not a brief time. many ways have done to make you better, to comfort you, to realize you that you have to accept the truth for your life.
is that nonsense to you? so you still coerce people to understand you
if people try to speak about the life's truth, you play with your own mindset and resist their advice, adhere to your wrong perception
too many people try to help you,  too many people try to understand you, too many events try to conscious you. and everything seems so worst in your eyes because no one support your action and perception. it happened because everyone loves you! everyone wants you get your own happiness with everything you have started. be responsible as a woman, behave like a mature woman, not like a child who permits all ways to get what you want.

and can i call you a psychotic?