your words.

when i asked you: 'why did you do all of this? made pains'
i'm mad at you, i'm angry! i can't controlled my anger. i can't hold my words to say everything that will hurt you.
i decided to leave you, didn't survive for all of those things. not until one day,

you told me:
never leave me - i couldn't.
you could leave me, but i couldn't. you could look for another guy that better from me. if you have found it, i'll allow you to leave me. because when you're happy, i'll too. never asked me to leave you. maybe i'm not the best for you, always hurt you with all of my behaviour ,  made you hate me, i'm too bad in your eyes. but i'll not look for another girl, you're the only one woman whom i want to marry in church in the right time.
so even i'll know another girl that maybe better than you, i just want to make you being mine forever. many people knew about me but only you who knew me inside and deepest, you knew what people didn't know, indeed you knew what i didn't know. how could i leave you when i realized that you're the best for me?

after you told these, we were starting fo fight again. for one week. i want to give up, but my heart voice said no! and i'm still standing here for us. i'll never leave you, i'll wait until you prove your words to me, and i'll lay myself to yourself, believing in you that you can take care of me - my love - my heart.




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