last time.

dear M,
the first time i talked about you in my blog, you were just one of my best friend
i never want you to be my boyfriend because it will break our friendship. and it happens. we broke up our relationship and also our friendship. i expected too much about that anyway
when i'm with you, i'm just only me. the original of me
you left me with too much memories we ever had
tears. laugh. smile. love. care. sorrow.
those have making my life colorful. those taught me how to love you deeper
i couldn't say thanks, that word never enough to represent everything about you
by the way, i'm still trying to move on. after you gave me a superb last meeting with you and her
i'm not strong as you see me. i'm not a good pretender as you expect to me
i'm fragile and i'm broken. that's all the words which can be said about me
but i wanna be stronger than ever. i wanna you see me when i can stand by myself without you
you, who bring me down into the lowest point
your name never gonna be disappeared, your action will remove from my brain for sure
but your love still alive in my heart
with that, i will find the better one until i can give my heart to him, not you anymore
after all things happened in our relationship, you can take a new one if you want
the new one who better than me. who can take care of you. who love you deeper than me
because all i want about you is:

you're happy with your  life, with your girlfriend. even not me who stand next to you in front of the altar in one of the church in this world

i'm gonna be so happy if you have found the right one, i promise i will come to your wedding.
now, it's time to let you go. walk my life without you again
and i have closed my chapter when there was still 'you' and 'us' in each pages, next chapter will just only 'me'


this is the last time i write about you in my blog. see you! ♥
with love hug kiss, V