the differences, 'bestfriends'

i have posted about 'bestfriends' yet on last may. then, it continued until today. and i still close my mouth to not throw rude words off in front of y'all. you know what? i never wanna hurt my bestfriends, never. that's what i do to you previously. i try to understand you, always try to concede for your selfishness, try to be a good best friend, and always always try to be beside you whenever you need me
now, i'm done for all of those suck things. there's no take and give between me, you, and you.
first, you just look for me when you need someone to talk. find me when there's no friend you can invite to go to. remember me when you were in sadness.
second, you never look for me when you're having fun with your friends. if another 'bestfriend' didn't ask you to hang out together, you will not care about your old 'bestfriends'. and even you didn't pay attention for the information i have told you, you asked me again innocently.
the last, i ever try to talk about it kindly sincerely. but before my words exit from my lip, i have lost my mood to talk about it. i thought it's nonsense to be talked between us because it will make an issue and fight. i know your character and i also know talk about it never finish our problem, just make a new one. so, what i have to do? so sorry, i'm too tired to pay attention of you
it's not my fault why i do this to you, you guys should take an introspection to yourself. instead of judging me that i don't want hanging out with you again. should i tell you? i thought i shouldn't, you're getting older. it means you can consider what you have done good or bad. and me, never wanna take my attention to you again. believe or not. i'm too hurt to have a communication with you.

everything changes, you decided to change and so did me. if you wanna overwhelm any faults to me, you have to see the mirror and take a reflection with what you have done lately to our friendSHIT, 'bestfriends'