it's done.

you flew off with the wings of my heart and left me flightless

~Stelle Atwater

the consequence of love is when love broke, it just have to be tough to leave it behind and start for a new chapter. definitely feel so hard while the process of leaving but when it have passed, love can be seen with another side. make it better if get a new one, experience makes
i'm in the process of leaving. i'm in the one of my test part to be better. and i'm trying to be willing let him go from my life because we're not meant to be together at all after almost  two years struggling to be accepted. too hurt to be true anyway. i'm in the middle of pressure. my family hit me to be on their side, close their eyes about him. and he hit me to be on his side, close his eyes about my family. then, which side i have to choose? i tried to be neutral, didn't take sides between one of them but once again i have to choose. i remembered when i told about these to my friend, he said implicitly to choose my family because family is the only one who will be by my side in every moment i got. i realized about it and thanks friend!
even hard and full of tears, i still try to let him go. somehow when i want to fix, there will always be a fight between him and i. so, it has to be marks that we have to be apart not together. i want everything fine, my family accepted me and he still by my side. but it's so selfish, isn't it? i already chose which side i belong to and i have to commit with that. i knew, inside my deepest heart i have made a true choice (maybe). still got a doubt about it. i tired to struggle about this
and finally, it's done