L-ing

just a title of a novel i have read today but it insinuated me about something i have done yet so far. some cases, there was a same between me and the personage in this thing was about Ava Torino. same in falling in love with, guy with a killing disease. but the difference was the response. she never thought to give up and still accompany him even when the death pick him up, she was not beside him. but me? i think to give up because of those tiredness that would kill me softly. i still have to struggle in condition that my family was not accepted my relationship. especially when my mom take my ring from M over me and never give it back to me because she didn't like i wore those ring (my dad also told these). that's my right HELLO? okay, i don't wanna talk about this again. it made my wound opened again. anw, those L novel taught me about something was to not wasting you time with someone who you were not falling in love with or someone who never take your love also your soul from your body to give him only. being single before get the real soul-mate is better than pretending to love someone. thanks L, you made me realized something i still confuse with :)