give up?

one year more i have waited to be accepted by my family about him. one year more i still struggle with all of those things. pretended everything would be fine but inside i knew it would be worse. sometimes, i thought to leave him. it's better maybe because i don't have to hurt anybody especially my dad, my mom, and your family. i sacrificed my own self-interest, my feeling to him. i realize everything will change, it prevailed too with you me us. but it just too hard, very very very hard to make it happen. to leave you. to go from his life. it should be better if i stay with him, together as a couple of life's partner. i knew if i still with him, i will hurt my family.
i got my own pressure from two side, my family and him. both of them were very important for me. i couldn't choose one of them to be prioritized. i have no energy to be patient. i wanted everything fine, walked in peaceness. am i wrong? i told my best friend today about my tiredness. and i felt so tired. she knew about it. i always told about him to her. i just wanted to share something i couldn't hold it alone.
now, should i give up?