first and last.

let me ask something: what will you do when you realize that a person in front of you was the best for you? will you let him go? will you sacrifice anything for him? will you leave anything for him? will you trust him to be your mate until you die? will you allow him to get in your heart and your soul? will you close your heart except him? will you stop crying? will you thank God?


i'm here beside you. with all i have in this world, and even the littlest things.
i can't stop crying when i remind about you: your smile, your heart, your attitude, your words, and you love.
i can't feel anything again after we apart. only tears which can be my words for anyone.

my heart is empty. without you. and i'm alone here.

i need you, and you're the only one my needed as i take my breath.
i'm lying if i say: i don't love you anymore! :(
my lip can say about it, but my heart? it's a fake.
this condition really suffer me. really build a biggest pain in my heart.
a biggest hole that will never get a cure by any medicine, any doctor, and anyone.

never force to find someone else.

it's hurt me. a lot. fully. directly. and making the hole bigger - bigger.
i try to not think about you, but i can't. never can.
i kept this pain alone. my tears fell down again again again.
there will always a crackle feeling in my heart when i feel your love again. feeling like i'm alive.
for something that i must to be dare to obey the rules and the warning is a must and a needed to get you back to me whatever by the ways.


i'll never let you go again. i'll sacrifice everything. i'll leave everything. i'll trust you to be my mate for ever. i'll allow you to go inside my heart and to get my soul become yours. i'll close my heart for anyone except you. i'll stop crying.
and i'll thank God because i've you in my life. my first and my last love (:
but, if you allow it. if you don't, there will always the same.