my commitment (:

almost three months i can't stop thinking about you. your condition especially.
when you arrived at the same place we met first, i couldn't meet you.

i have commit myself to be a good daughter for my dad. and accept his words.

because i know one thing that never change: he always wants the best for me (:


i built a defense in my heart.
a very strong defense which built by tears and sorrows.
i forced myself to be ready to face this hurting truth.
a very hard effort until i can be ready like now.


smile. it's the best symbol to show for anyone.
and laugh. it's the best way to remove my tears.
i know my effort will be not useless if i still survive with my defense and remember how difficult to get ready.
and i must remember about my dad - his love - his protect - his care - his sacrifice for me.
i won't disappoint him, because for me: family is the priority one (:

i have to learn how to be strong even my heart still felt pain.